Twisted Scribble: An Escapade with A Sensual Spirit

Mark 11:24 "Therefore I say unto you, What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them."

I’m on a point of 52-week low lately. Bored, unmotivated, and even worse i had some KFC for lunch.

I’ve been going to school since 17 years ago and counting still. Feel like i’m doing this forever, urghh… I’ve reached my limit. I’ve had enough of school…

I know it sounds spoilt and ungrateful, considering that only a teeny tiny fraction of world population can enjoy my privilege. But then what’s the frickin point?

I need a holiday, NOT want, but NEED!!!!!

Proverbs 21:

2: Every way of a man is right in his own eyes: but the LORD pondereth the hearts.
3: To do justice and judgment is more acceptable to the LORD than sacrifice.
4: An high look, and a proud heart, and the plowing of the wicked, is sin.
5: The thoughts of the diligent tend only to plenteousness; but of every one that is hasty only to want.

If only every trader and investor has read Proverbs 21:5

But is it true that the way we judge our deeds through our spectacles will end up with immense justification? ignore all the red flags if your guts say ok.

How will we all understand when death traps are ahead? after that should we make a detour or just stop? Which way to pick?

How should we know that we should progress aggressively with our vision or to just sit back and be content?

When the traffic is slowing down, and the progress has not been made, that’s when i rest my vision on my "hope shelf" and kick-back.

Proverbs 2:

⁶All wisdom comes from the LORD, and so do common sense and understanding.

⁹With wisdom you will learn what is right and honest and fair.

¹⁰Wisdom will control your mind, and you will be pleased with knowledge.

¹¹Sound judgment and good sense will watch over you.

¹²Wisdom will protect you from evil schemes and from those liars

¹³who turned from doing good to live in the darkness.

¹⁴Most of all they enjoy being mean and deceitful.

Wisdom comes with humility, as i believe.

So people, when you’re on the rock bottom, dont be disheartened. It could be God giving you a field humility training before He elevates your spirit, mind, body, even financial condition.

Vulnerability: The ability to be vulnerable (my version).

I thank God for the vulnerability He blessed me with.

The exposure of layers and realms of feelings to my fragile soul trains me to be less stubborn.

Changes are not my goal. Experiencing is.

I dont know why i’m so prone to something new. Try to embrace it. Spent on it. And then leave it, find something else new. Then the cycle begins again.

Am i born to be an experiencer? that’s it?

Guess, i’m in a life junction.

Freedom to choose the life path can be attractive.

But freedom to choose the wrong path is even more attractive.

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