Twisted Scribble: An Escapade with A Sensual Spirit

Good gracious God!

here i am again, scribbling and rambling stuff on and on as usual…

i suppose my intention is a bit devious, as i’m trying to do anything to steer clear of my assignment.

Guess who’s back… back again…! The old lazy Baby.

Only now i’m back as a Master of Accounting student, not an idealist Arts pupil whose aspiration revolves around the attempts to oppose pervasive government and being an obstinate essay writer.

Yeah, i just had an enjoyable chat with my long-time congenial friend. A little trip back the memory lane, talking how zany i was, and complaining on how now i can no longer perform my old accomplishing-1500-word-essay-a-day routine… given that now i’m thinking for someone else’s interest hence i have to be more logical and sensible.

Ugh, it’s really hard to think within boundaries and to write when your imagination is shackled. It is quite funny provided that i train myself to think outside the box.

Anyway enough about that, today i had a ‘Melbourne weather’ day, which means i experienced at least 4 types of weathers. Low, perplexed, frustrated, excited, dissapointed, cheery, perplexed again, frustrated again, happy and now tired and guilty (as i haven’t done anything valuable for my assignment)

yeah, looks like i made the right order

All and all what i learnt today was… no matter how low and stumped i feel, i can always hold onto people i love (my beloved and my friends for today)

and a special acknowledgement i reserve for my oldie best friend Kiky…(hiyyaaa… i miss you heaps lahhhh) who submitted her comment. very encouraging in the time of need like now, it gives me more reason to keep blabbing on this forum. Thanks gal…

Another thing i learnt as well today is that i’m over-committing myself. I voluntarily involve myself in numerous activities which in some ways could affect adversely to my sanity and health.

Come to think about it, my mind and conscience remain baffled on its irony.

My initial intention to jump into all these things was to develop myself and enhance my life skills, which is proven and tested to some extent.

But i feel like lately i couldn’t accomplish things and i’m always on the run to do something.

Is this painstaking process worth the result?

or am i doing this the right way?

I’ve been thinking much about what kind of person i’m going to be, career wise.

In my theory, there are two types of people in the way they’re approaching their career aspiration:

1. Focused and determined people. I genuinely admire these people as they devote a significant period of their life to focus on one area and strive to be the best at it. Names like Murdoch, Branson and Gates are the well-known graduates of this institute. I’m tempted to put Jesus in this category since He’s given all His life to teach the truth and accomplished it with unsurpassed faithfulness. But He’s also done other things like being a carpenter and stuff, although it doesnt really matter.

I’ve seen many people who work in the same industry for tens of years and thrive. I suppose that’s how they thrive in life, by exploring one area and get the best out of it.

2. Now, this box contains people who have job history longer than Paris Hilton’s fuck buddy list. They are attracted to ever-changing environment, interested in many things, and easily seduced by challenge. Many reasons drive them to do this, they could be blessed with many talents or the right job hasn’t just landed yet so they keep digging and searching.

I will categorise myself in this group for both reasons… hehhehe… nah, i am interested in many things. For me i’m better off knowing little about many things than having a thorough knowledge about one field. Coz life is an unpredictable journey, you need different tools to deal with every situation.

My dream careers range from being a Business/Communication Consultant, opening my own craft and fashion shop, becoming a successful writer, to being a professional Belly Dancer.

However, my ultimate vision or life calling, shall i say, is to be a Community Developer in Developing Nations, carrying humanitarian mission to people in need. yeah, weird huh if you refer to my previous list. I believe i receive this vision from God and no matter what i’ll do or be, i know i will come to this point. Sooner or later. And whatever careers or activities i do are intended to equip and prepare myself for this highest calling.

So now i tempt to re-test my position. Do i actually belong in the first category? or should i put myself outside the box?

Oh well…

So which box are you in?

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