Preambule
my life is an unfinished orgasm at the moment.
confused and unsatisfied.
even though it’s not the bottom line of all, but something clutters my mind. my beloved loves me and vice versa. love stays but doubt never leaves. blame myself for being unbended, blame him to be too honest, blame the universe for uniting us, blame the love… to be…
how much should you give up in a relationship? be it lovers, family, friends and God.
well, God has granted me life and joy, that’s for sure. sometimes i’m idiotic enough to be reluctant to switch the button on.
my love, my fears, all shaken up, in a fresh smoothie called life, virtually and dreams.
my love manifests virtually.
my fears haunt me in a subconscious world. every sleep, almost every night, someone chases me… run baby, run…
my family is always in the picture. why them?
God, are you playing with me?
i’m shaken and afraid… have i been doing things right?
but He said "dont be afraid, my child"
i believe nothing’s wrong… or right as a value judgement. it’s only when it does not serve our highest purpose.
but God, i plan things too… You said you gives me freedom , please God, dont play with my mind… You’re one cheeky creator
things might go wrong… but why should i be afraid if i have You?
God, i love him… but my heart was broken for a while. not only due to the confession, but it kills me to realise that i judged him. God, who am i to judge him?
I’m just afraid, Big Dude. just afraid…
"Fear is the opposite of love" "Love … and you shall not fear"
Baby… love is unconditional… dont distract yourself with fear… love brings joy…
no one has perfect history… easy to say… when you face the truth, your heart aches… longs for justification and delusion…
When you love, you dont lose…
Baby, love…
April 7th, 2005 at 3:07 am
Baby!! Love your article!! it tickles me for a moment when im reading it at the office and i think you’re right about getting the job that you really want..just like me right now, when im UNwanting the job, out of the blue, it come right through me and by the time i desperately wanting a job as a stewardess, it seems like it’s a trivia quiz that i just couldnt figure out until now,and im too going to the salon, having a full day spa and go to the skin doctor for facial every month just to make myself looks good so that when the day comes, i’ll be in a great shape.. but hey, toe be or not toe be, we’ll see what happens next, anyway, hope you get a great job that you’re wanting so much, dont worry i have faith in you that you’ll eventually get it somehow.. miss you.. proud of you and luv you!! muaach..
Kay
PS : sorry about your toe,haha